Day 79: I just let it happen

I’ve been doing the daily composition train for nearly four months, and it is going great as ever. I just let it happen. I just sit down at my computer, wait for the Logic program to load, set up a few instrumental tracks to work with (generally starting with piano), then I put my fingers down and start playing. Usually my initial improvisation suggests a musical direction. “Oh, this could be jazzy” or “Wow, this sounds kind of dramatic and spooky.” The initial idea is like a beckoning from the…

Day 61: Apparently Not Caring is Powerful!

Today the Charlie Chaplin “The Lion’s Cage” video featuring my piano score passed 3.7 million views. The viral video experience continues to be amazing.* For example, I have four newer videos that have all gotten thousands of views thanks to “The Lion’s Cage,” one of them as many as 65k (It’s a second Charlie Chaplin video: you can watch it here.). Also, I now have 13.3k subscribers on my Youtube channel, when for over a decade I had fewer than 100 (sheepish grin). I find it interesting that the first…

Day 2: That Time I Got Jealous of Idris and Dwayne

Today my wife and I went to see “Jurassic World: Dominion.”* I enjoyed watching familiar faces from the legacy “Jurassic Park” movies–Laura Dern, Sam Neil, and Jeff Goldblum–on screen with the newer “Jurassic World” actors, Chris Pratt and Bryce Dallas Howard. All in all, I came home a happy moviegoer (I wish I could say the same for my wife. She found the movie excessively stressful, and I see why–the characters spend the entire movie trying to escape being eaten by dinosaurs). What I want to write about is not…

Hey, Mr. Investing Junkie, Lay Off the Rat Poison!

Recently I have spent a lot studying websites like portfoliocharts.com and portfoliovisualizer.com. First, let me say these are fantastic sites. I often find myself enjoying their rich wealth of data about the past returns of various investments, and the historical characteristics of different portfolios. At the same time, it seems that I have crossed the line from doing enjoyable research to something… else; namely, trying to find out what the “perfect portfolio” is 🙁 This might seem valuable or logical to do, but I feel as though I have fallen…

Everything You Ever Want

Everything you ever want is available if you will just cease thinking about all the things you don’t have. If you will just clear your mind and think instead of lovely things: things that inspire you, things that make you feel happy, things you like. If you could just re-focus, and shift to the subjects that inspire you, the uplift you, and just stay there, you could find such light, such wonder, such happiness. You would be amazed! Try it out, see what happens. 🙂

Leave Everyone Else Out

None of you came forth with the intention of listening to anyone outside of you. Every one of you knew that life would cause you to expand, and that that expanded being would call you, and that when you go in the direction of that expansion that you would feel good. And you planned on leaving everyone else out of the equation. You really did! Abraham-Hicks, in this Youtube recording I just love this quote. I heard it this morning as I was eating breakfast. I’m pretty sure I have…

Reaching for Satisfaction: Rock-Throwing Edition

I’m always reaching for satisfaction. If you check your own thoughts for how they feel, you can really start to tell when they are on point … or not. I am much better at this nowadays. I remember a few years ago, inspired by Abraham-Hicks I would go on runs and I would repeat the words, “It’s my dominant intent to reach for thoughts that feel good!” I loved the idea, but the idea was so new to me that it still seemed rather conceptual. It took awhile for it…

The Ghost of Elvis

Every day I show up to the page and see what it has for me. I say this literally, and I say this figuratively. The “page” might be this keyboard, it might be the journal I’m currently writing in. It might be the piano I am playing, it might be the music program on my computer I am using. It might be the voice recorder on my phone taking down whatever I express, whether through words, song, or piano-playing. By extension, it might also be the things I tell the…

How Is Beating Yourself Up Working Out?

[The last few days I have been mulling over some “issues” in my life, and I’m not exactly sure I’m making progress 🙁 It’s been a bit unpleasant, actually. Hence this conversation] Chris, we feel what you are feeling. We get your sense of heaviness as you try to sort out all these complex things. We know they aren’t actually complex, but you have allowed different considerations that aren’t of “divine”* origin to kind of clog up the pathways here. So instead of it being simple and easy and a…

When You Feel Cut Off From What You Want

You want beauty. You want joy. You want things that feel good, like a wonderful meal, you wish to sit and enjoy it, and bask in the pleasant conditions. So that is what you wish. Yet do you allow yourself to have that? Do you let yourself have the things that are in your mind as wishes? Or do you keep them at bay? Do you let them in or no? Many people sit as if removed from their own desires, watching other people do what they wish to do,…