Tonight I am writing about an older post, “The North Star of Happiness Beckons,” from 11/28/20.
In it I wrote about why I was so committed to being happy and “not to do things that suck.” As I wrote,
My “No More Suckiness” Philosophy resulted from life experiences that really sucked. After all the confusion, lack of clarity, and unhappiness created by not checking in with how things felt for me, the “No More Suckiness” commitment is a comical way of describing a true passion of mine: to be in alignment in all that I do and am!
This is an interesting one. On the one hand, I am talking about how I always aim to be happy. On the other hand, there’s an unpleasant edge to it. The “No More Suckiness” thing, after all, is phrased in the negative, and there’s the talk of “confusion, lack of clarity, and unhappiness.” It’s like I’m focused on suckiness.
Meanwhile, I really like the North Star of Happiness concept, but I’m not really sure I was truly focused that happiness in this post! From a Law of Attraction point of view, the post feels like a mixed bag. I may be talking about being happy, but seems I was more focused in the past, on negative experiences. Rather than generating a happy tone, it feels more defensive or guarded.
I like to think I’m a bit better these days at clearing up my thoughts.
Oh well. One of the hallmarks of my blog is that I leave posts as they are (though I do sometimes do light editing, such as cleaning up typos or word phrasing).
On the other hand, it is an interesting snapshot of where I was then. It’s nice to think that I’ve done some growing since.