One thing that excites me is the idea of how much growth and expansion awaits me. I’m not talking about “shoulding” on myself, comparing myself to others, or thinking that someone else knows what is best for me. I’m not talking about forcing myself to learn something “because it’s good for me.” I’m talking about having a general optimism about how much I can learn and expand in ways that I want to learn and expand.
Now, there are many things I like about myself already. For instance, I love that I’m able to blog so easily and consistently, whenever I decide that I want to do it. I love that I’m great with my students. I love that I create music. I love that I run.
I don’t need to stop there! There are other areas where I’m eagerly anticipating a break-through. For instance, I look forward to the day when I can move forward with gusto in business activities once again*: sales, marketing, etc. I look forward to new sources of income opening up from using my considerable creative skills. For awhile now I have been shifting and clearing out old, unhelpful thought patterns, mostly by ignoring areas that don’t feel right and instead focusing on things that are fun, like writing this blog 🙂
At the same time, the soon-to-be breakthrough areas are very much on my mind. And I am excited by the prospect of feeling an inner GREEN LIGHT, an ALL CLEAR to charge forward enthusiastically in those areas. It shall come!
In the meantime, I have decided that unless something is a HELL YES, unless I really feel ready to take it on, and know that I can enjoy myself, then I’m not ready! In the past, I spent too long trying to force things, too long trying to do what I thought I should do, too long unaware of how hard I was making things. That sucked.
No more suckiness. No more forcing things. There’s no need. Things are going really well for me, and there are plenty of things that I do that are satisfying and rewarding in many ways. I can afford to put a few things down for awhile so that they can re-set and be there for me when I’m ready.
To me, this philosophy is a lot more fun! And in the end, I think I will be able to do all the things that matter to me.
*I have moved forward in these areas with “gusto” before, but there were undertones of negative-thinking which ultimately sucked in various ways. I look forward to complete freedom and joy in these areas!