This week has been pretty remarkable, because for the first time in recent memory I have been playing my songs.
And enjoying myself.
And I’m not just talking about playing the song I happen to be working on. I’ve written about fourteen songs in the past year (eleven of them for a musical I collaborated on earlier this year). I certainly spent a lot of time with these songs. No, I’m talking about playing (and in many cases listening to records I’ve made of) songs I wrote as far back as 2009.
It feels strange to say this, but I haven’t taken much joy in revisiting my songs in a long time. Like say, 5 1/2 years.
My last attempt to finish an ambitious album project of songs ended so badly that I was pretty traumatized, to say the least. I was ready to take a break.
Clearly, a long break.
Which is why this week is so remarkable.
Oh, to enjoy my own songs again! 🙂
I’m not sure exactly where this will lead me, but I like it. From now on, I am going to do what feels good. This time around, I feel I have the personal tools to stay in alignment, and I am optimistic that I can learn from past mistakes.
Also, I devoted much of the past five and a half years to productive distractions like this blog, and all the other fun things I enjoy: running, journaling, read, and studying and doing investing. This has given me a new model of what it means to do things that are in alignment for me.
All in all, things bode well for my creative and musical future.
In the meantime, I’m just glad I’m enjoying my songs 🙂