This morning I went to the cafe, “my” cafe, and I had a glorious time, sitting, writing and receiving inspiration. In the process, I got clarity for an idea I have been thinking about for a long time. It’s the idea of writing a book, specifically a book about piano playing. It will draw from my teaching and playing experiences as well as the philosophy of personal happiness I write about on this blog.
As I sat there relishing this idea whose time I feel has come, I felt a sense of the perfection of the writing I have done, especially for this blog. There were times in the past where I wondered what I was “doing” with this project. As in, “where’s it going?” I sometimes felt a slight sense of embarrassment or anxiety, as if the blog needed to “mean” something beyond the process of doing it (you know, by achieving socially-accepted signs of significance: popularity, making money, etc)
Fortunately, I didn’t let that stop me. I am so glad that I have kept to this thing, this crazy blog that I write for me, myself, and I, and for the few faithful who regularly like my shared posts on Facebook or talk to me about it directly. I am so glad I had the faith to keep going, to keep writing, to not worry about the outcome, and just to go forward 🙂
As a result, I have over 900 published blog posts now. After last night’s post, I was reminded of the sense of triumph I had when I first started doing daily blogging. I feel it now. Each post is like a page from the book of my life. This is my space unconditional, where I carve out my own personal world through words. It does not need a particular response from others for validity or meaning.
I’m not religious per se, but I have always liked the saying from the Bible: “If you have the faith of a mustard seed, you can move mountains.” My blogging feels like that. I am moving personal mountains.
As for the new book idea, the idea is still fresh. The next stage is to start writing out content for a rough draft. I am sure I will update about it when there’s more to tell.
Meanwhile, tomorrow is my birthday and I am going to take off from blogging. See you in a few days!