Chris, you were made to enjoy life! You were made to have fun, to enjoy yourself! and you get to create your life. You get to decide what you are focused on! And whatever you focus on becomes your reality. Whatever you chronically focus on becomes what you call your reality. You know that?
Yes, I do know that. Sometimes it is good to get a reminder.
This is only because you still have thoughts that are completely out of whack, thoughts that come from your felllow humans, thoughts and assumptions about how “life is hard” and “you need to earn it” and all these bogus ideas like judgment and unworthiness and “Why haven’t you made a million dollars today?” and “How many lives have you saved?” and these ways you set yourself up for frustration and failure, which is not even a real thing, by continually judging yourself because you don’t measure up to these impossible expectations!
You are so right 🙂 These stories we tell ourselves are just crazy. Nothing you say is new to me, yet why is it that I have hung onto these bogus ideas?
We think it is because a part of you likes fitting in. Because these kinds of ideas seem so normal to you and others around you that you might feel weird if you gave them up. What would it be like if you thrived in every way? What a weirdo you would be! It is so much safer to be neurotic and screwed up!
[sheepish grin] It does seem pretty ridiculous when you put it that way.
It is ridiculous. Because it is entirely made up. And it doesn’t serve you, not really. Not the deeper desires you have.
And yet you love me anyway!
Of course we do! Always! Forever more, no matter what!
Thank you!