These days I am inspired by a new sense of clarity as I let go of old thoughts that are wayward of my alignment, ie stinky/sucky. As I discern how my thoughts feel, I am better at tuning into the ones I want to empower, and taking my focus off thoughts I do not.
To me, it’s sort of a Dr. Jekyll / Mr. Hyde game, pondering two sides of myself. One side is bright and full of possibility. He is the one who generally shows up on this blog! The other side lives in a bunker of self-protection. He specializes in survival at all costs. His watchword is “mistrust.” His ammunition is self-criticism, which he uses liberally to (try to) convince me it is not safe to come out.
Today I was aware of both sides. I was inspired by the recognition of who I want to be: the joyful, expansive being who I know I really am. I was also aware of that old negative attitude, guarded and fearful. It was not pleasant, yet I was happy it came to my consciousness.
Because that means I can let it go 🙂
As I go through this process, it is essential be kind to myself. I am better at this. It makes it feel safe to grow. If we are hard on ourselves as we try to learn, we jeopardize the whole thing. I am finding that as long as I stay focused on wanting to feel good, I am continually reaching for thoughts that feel good. The thoughts that don’t feel good are losing my attention…. and therefore disappearing…
I am winning the game.