It’s funny how perfectly things can loop around. Earlier today I was thinking about this blog post, and what it could be. I was failing at that endeavor, since I was generally failing to keep a positive frame of mind in general. Unfortunately I was plagued by quite a lot of unpleasant head trash that made today generally quite uncomfortable.
However, my spirits were dramatically cheered tonight by going to my Comedy Improv Class, where I practiced improvising with other members of the class for two hours and had a whoppin’ good time. After that, most of us headed over to the nearby neighborhood bar, where two of us (myself included) sang Kareoke. I sang Tom Petty’s “Learning to Fly,” and that definitely upped the fun factor of the whole night! I was loose and relaxed, and related really well to the audience (which is the key to performing for people: bringing them along for the ride). I arrived home just a few minutes ago a brand new man, ignited with joy of being alive after such a satisfying evening.
So earlier today, when I was thinking about what to write about, I eyed a post from a couple months ago when I did the Good Day Sacramento TV show over the holidays. In this post, I wrote at length about how tricky my mind state could be, and how appreciative I was to “create freedom from automatic mental bullshit.” The irony is, this is exactly what I was dealing with all day long today!
Nothing that a little night of performing couldn’t cure! I feel so grateful and clear now. You know, I never ever take that for granted, especially after a day like today. Feeling happy is what life is about. It is what I strive for in everything I do. It’s why I call this blog what I do. I know what it feels like to be intensely unhappy. I was reminded of it today, blessedly for only a few hours.
If happiness is the door, then I’m walking through it. Every day if I have to, over and over if I have to. As I wrote awhile ago, happiness is not a one-time event. Sometimes you gotta ride through days that feel shitty… and then get saved by a night of performing where you feel clear as a bell, and happy as the day you were born.
Thank You Universe!