A few years ago, when I started this blog, I began experimenting with using different voices that came through as I wrote. One of them I called “My Higher Self,” because it tended to come from a clear-headed, or inspired place. My normal self had conversations with it, usually to get clarity or inspiration (Look for “Higher Self” in the categories tab on the right of this post). In truth, I often engage in this kind of dialog when I write on my own. Sharing it in this blog, I admit it, is slightly nerve-wracking, because of my insecurities of sounding like some kind of schizophrenic with a spiritual bent. However, this blog has always been somewhat of a wild ride, where anything goes in the name of self-expression. So I hope you like it:
Hello and welcome to all who read this post. Chris is so excited to be writing this, and his latest 365 Blogging Project is a great way for him to express himself freely. This has not always been an easy thing for him to do, yet he is finding freedom in the simple act of sharing something with you everyday.
Throughout his life, Chris has sometimes struggled with an inner conflict over when or how or whether to express himself to others. He did not always believe that others wanted to hear from him, especially early in his childhood, so he became withdrawn at times and shut down. This was not very pleasant for him, and eventually, he realized it. Ever since, he has made much improvement in opening his mouth, or in this case, typing on the keyboard, and communicating. This has generally helped his life become happier and more fulfilling.
Thanks for the introduction. I admit, I find it kind of embarrassing to be talked about like this. But then again, that’s what this blog has always had: a component of embarrassment.
There is nothing to be embarrassed about, Chris! It is a wonderful thing what you do here. All you need to do is remember to give up control, to allow yourself to express what is inside you, and trust in God and the Universe and your Higher Self to work it all out.
Yes, I get that. I guess that’s why I am posting this today. I took a long run today, and during it, I was praying for guidance and inspiration. Maybe this is that inspiration.
Certainly it is that. You are allowing yourself to float on a current of divine inspiration! How does it feel?
Kind of uncomfortable. I’d almost rather just stick to the “normal” stuff where I just sound like a regular guy talking about his life.
And that you shall do too! Isn’t it wonderful? You get to do it all! You get to go wherever you want, be whoever you want to be!
Okay, thanks. I guess. In a way, that is true, because when I write, I am free to talk about whatever I want to talk about. And that is really cool.
Yes, it definitely is! It frees up your infinite nature. And your endless power to focus on whatever you choose. That is a glorious thing.
Yeah, I guess it is. Thank you very much. Um.
Chris, we recognize what it takes for you to write this. You are “sticking your neck out” to have this conversation. It exposes you to the possibility of criticism or people looking at you funny. Or maybe they will find it charming? Or maybe they will just think you are highly creative? Wouldn’t that be nice? Then you could be considered an eccentric artist with a big imagination, instead of a gifted messenger of divine insight.
Oh, please do not go there! I’d much rather just be considered an eccentric artist — hopefully, a great one. Because there are so many artists across the ages who were eccentrics. In fact, that seems to be the rule. We be different.
No doubt this is true, Chris! It is exactly this difference that allows you to express your unique voice, your unique vision of the world. It is what makes all great art great.
Yeah, for sure. I get that. Um.
You are funny Chris. We do not mean to make you squirm or be uncomfortable. In fact, the opposite. YOU are helping YOURSELF to become powerful, “to break free from the chains that tie(d) you up,” as you wrote in your song.
Yes, I appreciate that. And I get that. Thank you. Yet writing this dialog in my own journal at a cafe is a lot different than sharing it here… for everyone to see!
Isn’t it wonderful? Isn’t it wonderful to be free!?
Um, in a way, yes it is. In that scary sort of wonderful when you let go of the handle bars and just let the bike sail down the hill, yeah, I guess it is wonderful. Doesn’t seem to be highly encouraged in our world, haha. But all the great ones do it.
And so can you. Great one.
Haha. Thank you much. Now everyone who reads this will think I’m conceited.
No they won’t. Not if they get the spirit in which this is meant. People will get that you are learning and growing and they will identify with it. For they recognize these struggles in themselves. They call it “the human condition.”
Yes, I’ve heard of that. Seems to lead to no end of faults and weaknesses. Lol.
Sometimes. Or sometimes it leads to incredible expansion, as people confront their own humanity, and use it to create incredible beauty through the example of how they lead their lives.
Yes. I like that very much. I wish to do that too.
We know that. That’s why you are writing, with us, this post.
Yes, I guess so. Thank you. Um. Sorry to be so squeamish, but can I go now? I feel like being normal again… er, or preserving whatever level of normalcy I can at this point muster.
Of course, Chris! You are free!